Daddy does not sleep well. It is not your fault in any way. It is those voices, those demons that creep into Daddy's consciousness who are to blame. There is no rational reason for the difficult sleep. There is no pattern to follow. The only thing that is consistent is the level of interruption that makes falling asleep a daunting task. Daddy tosses and turns, and even when he seems to be asleep, his brain is violently fighting those desperately needed restful moments. What is there to do? Who knows at this point...Daddy has tried many things to quiet the brain...with no success, so what now? Who knows? Daddy is doing his best, but the flashbacks do what they do, and the nightmares have come back with a vengeance. The next step is not clear other than to keep fighting and keeping realizing that each day gives a new opportunity to win the next battle. Daddy may not always win, but he always fights.
I love you!