It is a very lonely place in which your Daddy exists, and in many was due to his own actions. You see, Daddy was never a group sort of person. He has always prefered to be by himself in most facets of his life and has often exhibited many forms of destructive behavior in these alone places. It has been almost 42 years and the alone places are like a kid's blanket...long overdue to be thrown away, but even tattered and threadbare, they give comfort and security. Maybe now, however, is time to retire that old blanket, not just to some memorial box where it can be found again but to the trash where it needed to go many years past.
One day you will understand, and so will Daddy.
I love you!