Daddy is not so sure what to do with this one. On one hand, classifying long-term grief as a mental disorder would help a great many people. On the other, it further stigmatizes people just like your Dad who live normal lives with not-so-normal and completely unwanted 'baggage'. Daddy does consider himself altered or different now than before you died, but who would not be? Sometimes your Dad even questions his sanity and relevance in this world, but again, who does not ask a million questions of themselves after such an horrific life-altering event? Daddy has not found anyone yet who does not feel or think similarly. The only thing Daddy keeps finding are 'professional' opinions from well-meaning individuals who have one huge hole in their resume. None of them has a dead child. This is not a criticism by any means, just an observation about having to walk a mile in another man's shoes to be able to truly relate to that person's grief. Daddy would not wish this 'mental disorder' on anyone since there is no prognosis in regards to how long it will last, and there is no medication that will take away the flashbacks or nightmares that still haunt Daddy's mind. There is only time...lots and lots of time.
I love you and miss you every day!